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Wednesday, February 26, 2003

 
don't know why



im in a shitty mood. it feels like someone's scratching their fingernails on a chalkboard in my head.

i feel like punching something. i want to feel and hear splintering wood. i feel the need to destroy. dont know why.

there's nothing to look forward to. work? yea right, id rather squegee windows under a freeway overpass for change. ooh, i can go party this weekend and watch people get sloshed and try to convince themselves and others that life is sooooo much fun. i wish i had something to do. something to get my mind off things. something to look forward to.

with all the random thoughts racing thru my head, i should be depressed, suicidal even. but i just find it infuriating. i dont even know what 'it' is. im just in a shitty mood. don't know why.