...FROM YOU! I LEARNED IT FROM WATCHING YOU

Monday, September 23, 2002

 
watched the good girl with 'butt dimples' tonight. ok, i should stop calling her that. codename: bd sue.

rather than attempting an informal review of the movie, a well-written review can be read here. however, this reviewer is a bit harsh. my thoughts? i was impressed with jennifer anniston's acting. i didnt think of 'rachel' except maybe one or two times when she reverted to rachel's trademark shrill, frustrated outbursts. the movie is simple. it's good, but in a depressing sort of way.

as i was driving home i cranked up my 'weezer' mix. i opened the windows and lit up a stogie. the songs felt good, felt right. the words had nothing to do with the way i was feeling, but the tone and melodies did. ambivalence about bd sue. one thing i learned in the past year is that i cannot trust myself. actually i cant trust my feelings. like the time i thought i was 'in love' with one of my exes, but i got over her in a week. i went from devastation to singing 'obla-di, obla-da, life goes on'.

and things dont faze me no mo'. sure i know im mellow. and drama queens are top five on my list of pet peeves. but lately i feel numb. i actually found myself envying those people that seem to be addicted to drama. they at least feel things. my friend thinks im a robot. the first thing that she (along with a bunch of other people) told me upon hearing about my game show experience was 'im not surprised at all. that show was MADE for you.' sure, great. "fuck you very much" <----------- (line from 'the good girl'). i think ill go put on my tin man costume now.